Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm

Temperature: 102.7 F
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My other "main account". ( kind of silly, huh...but I have different friends there and like them and do not want to inconvenience them)
I upload more there so take a look if you wish. Most is traditional work.

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I have determined I will have to get myself together...
I have been in almost total despair lately.
But in order to keep my Mom from feeling the urge to hug me..and...sigh...rub my shoulders..
I have to pull it together.
I understand she is trying to make me feel better and I am a jerk.
But I have always found her touch to be revolting.
It is nothing really to do with my feelings for her.
It is a chemistry thing?
On top of the fact that she is doing this...she acknowledges that I don't really care for it....but I should put up with it anyway because according to her, it is good for me.
Anything that leaves me nauseas for almost an hour after can not be good for me.
I don't want her to touch me...I know it probably means that I am a bad person...but I don't want it.
I wish I could feel differently...but I don't.



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